like an anorexic’
and I are sitting in a dark room. I am watching moving dots.. he’s recording my
responses on the computer. In between trials we talk about my weight loss
‘That’s impossible’ I say, ‘I love food!’.
‘So do anorexics, they love food and
cook a lot’. (But he knows I love to cook so that’s hardly fair.)
‘I bet you weigh yourself every day’ he
continues, ‘I used to work in
psychiatrics, and we used to see that stuff all the time’.
that’s where he’s wrong! I don’t weigh
myself at all. I don’t even own a scale.
And then I started thinking about why I don’t own a scale..
Well.. firstly, it sort of sets you up for failure. I mean, weight loss takes
time and after you’ve had a hard workout, you want to know whether it worked right
away. And if it doesn’t show on the scale, it’s a huge disappointment. Even if you look in the mirror and think you
look better, you’re still going to check the scale. And weight loss is a lot
like your bank account, there is never as much there as you thought. (Kind of like your potential.. http://nl.youtube.com/watch?v=VxBTcUnKJIk)
secondly, euh.. maybe I don’t have a second argument, but the first one was
pretty good! There are times at which I really would like to know if I lost any
and if so how much. I’m sure it can be very motivating. I just don’t think it’ll
measure up to the potential frustration. Also, I really don’t care how much I weigh.
Really, I wouldn’t mind weighing a ton if it didn’t show up on my body.
does, so that’s where I focus. Feeling better about the way I look.
If I can do that, all is well.